An answer to prayer.....

About two weeks ago I was feeling pretty low about the adoption process. For those of you that might not know we have been involved in the adoption process for about 15 months. We had been told that we were very desireable candidates and first on the top of the list for people that they wanted to get through the program but it has seemed like every class we went to there were people that were farther along than us without meeting all the requirements that we had met and I had lost faith in the fact that God even wanted us to adopt. So I prayed about it. Just once and it was pretty frank and to the point. I told God that I didnt really feel like it was working out and that I wasnt even sure I really wanted to adopt anymore. But that it had been a pretty major thing for me to get to the point where I was even open to adopting. And I prayed that we would know by Sams wedding ( Feb 23 ). So the first week went by and nothing. At the start of the next week we got a letter about amy making up one session she had missed but that wasnt what I had been looking for so I wasnt satisfied that that was an answer. Also on Monday we were talking to one of the people that was a reference for me and they were saying that they hadnt quite finished the required reference forms but were just about done. I quickly calculated in my mind that even if they were done that evening and mailed it still wouldnt have made it in in time for the ministry to process them and move us to the next step because the government just doesnt work that fast ever. I figured it was over and I was kinda cross. A good friend of mine said every vision has a birth and a death and then God comes through. I thought your and idiot im not talking to you about this anymore! So Thursday morning I went to pick up a check and it wasnt ready and i was discouraged and tired of life and pulling back up to my house I thought to myself man some days God just doesnt come through. No sooner had the thought crossed my mind and I mean the very second. My cell phone rings and its Amy. " Linda just called from the ministry and she wants to start our home study. !!??!!??!! I didnt know if i was going to laugh or cry! It was an amazing feeling. I was still discouraged about the check I was happy about the phone call I was embarrased for doubting God just too many emotions. So i did what I always I laughed! It was an amazing lesson and almost felt like someone putting there hand on your shoulder and saying its ok. I am still here and im working on things. Unfortunatlly the person He seems to work on the most is me, or so it would seem when your the person going through it. Im sharing this because I receltly read a really good book and one of the points that jumped out at me was testimony breeds testimony. When something good happens you should tell everyone because that will encourage them to have faith. So...Have faith :)