just cause Ian asked

I havent blogged lately because i havent had much to say. since my mother in law passed away i havent really felt like pouring my heart into anything. Too much cranky to come out. Which is probably what has got me going again. That and the fact Ian was giving me the gears. My beef these day sis christianese. The next person that tells me God has a plan for whats going on will probably get a punch in the throat. I just cant handle the stupid things that people say to try to describe "christian" things. One of the last ones was someone said they needed to let God riegn over them. Which brings me to a tough question about our relationship with God. How do you have a relatioship with someone that rules over you. God didnt creat man so he had something to play with like his own reality game. he created us for a relationship. to converse with to have a life with. and then somehow we have turned it into this serious over rule. I could be missing it completely but i just dont see how i can have a relatioship with someone that is going to rule over me. i mean that seems impossible.